I love you and I do not know if I could ever stop, if I could ever let go, if I could give you up. I love you and I wish you loved me too. Please, baby, come back

WHEN I LIE IN BED AT NIGHT, I PICTURE YOU LAYING IN YOUR BED. THEN I MENTALLY TRANSPORT YOU FROM YOUR BED TO MINE, AND THINK ABOUT WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO LIE IN YOUR ARMS.

Some times i get so upset and depressed i dont know what to do with my self. The littlest things make me cry, and all i want to do is sleep. I hate it.

Firsts:
 The first time you held my hand, I got goose bumps everywhere. The first time you put your arm around me, I went home and smelled my shirt because your scent was still there. The first time we kissed, I seriously thought we were in love. The first time you left me, I thought you took my heart with you.

Now it’s our lasts and I don’t know how to function without you.

I used to know this boy
Who gave his love away

To every girl he met
And with all the games he played
He never seemed to cry
He never got upset
And one by one they came
And one by one they left
I thought that I could fix him
If he would let me in
But all of my advances
Were shut down in the end
When days turned into months
I begged him to explain
And this is what he sang:

I just want every girl I see
To walk away with part of me
Until theres nothing left to hold
Until theres nothing left to hate
I appreciate your help
But even you can't save me from myself

I used to know this girl
Who took notes in a book
But she ripped out all the pages
Before I got a look
At all the words she scribbled
At all the lines she filled
But the ink stains on her fingers
Told me she was skilled
At capturing a feeling
That most of us just miss
The simple pain of living
With goodbyes on our lips
I found one of the pages
Crumpled by his bed
And this is how is read:

It's not like I am weak
Or that I don't know how to leave
It's just that everytime you cheat
You bring me closer to defeat
Until theres nothing left to love
Until theres nothing left to say
I know that you need help
But even I can't save you from yourself.

I just had the strangest dream. I was holding my own heart in my hands. My mom said: “This is a very dangerous thing to do. Your heart can get very easily infected this way.”
I said: “I don’t care.” I left the apartment and I embarked upon a journey.
As I was walking along, my heart suddenly said to me: “You know, I don’t particularly appreciate being outside of your ribcage. I don’t think you care about protecting me and that will harm you too in the long run. Please put me back inside.”
I said: “But I think you are beautiful and I want people to see that.”
My heart said: “You will give me away to the first person that comes along…”
I said: “No, I care about you! I think you are precious and pure.”
I didn’t even finish saying this when you came, ripped my heart out of my hands, tossed it to the ground, and stomped on it. Before I could realize what was going on, I was also on the ground, dead.

I’m scared to death of the future. Everything seems so unsure between us, and I want to know for a fact that I will wake up with you occupying the other side of the bed for the rest of my life.